What if I had grown up with the belief that I could one day literally change the way I perceived myself? How would it have changed me in college?
If I HAD grown up with the capability of being able to foreshadow the events in my life that would change the way I perceive myself, that change would never have occurred.
Knowing things ahead of time always allows you a period of time to brace yourself for the impact of what is to come. I would honestly rather not know and then crash into it with full force. The anticipation of knowing I could change my perspective of myself would surely have hindered that change from actually taking place in my life.
Instead, I am glad that I grew up blindly accepting my fate, as the results of my experiences and consequences of my choices shaped and molded me along the way.
I feel as though I would never have been as receptive to information or dared to do half of the things I have accomplished in college if I grew up knowing I could change my own perspective. I allowed myself the full freedom to think, question, contemplate, collaborate, and create during college–And, in doing so, my perspective gradually changed right under my feet and I didn’t even fully realize it until I reflected on it while writing this post.
I walked into Baylor a freshman and am about to exit as a self-assured young woman with immense internal and external perspective…which will surely only continue to change and grow,–as it should.